Trauma works mysteriously. We all have some kind of traumas in our life known and unknown. And as life goes on it keeps creating new ones. These are small experiences with trauma. Hope they help you understand their work.
In May 2022, a heat wave came in India and the temperature almost went to 42°C.
Instead of enjoying tea and coffee, we were getting irritated with hot beverages. So me and my roommate Vishal decided to have a cold drink. We were heading to one coffee shop nearby. And inquired about cold drinks. But he started cold coffee recently. So we thought we should try. Ordered two cold coffees. Vishal started drinking.
I took one sip and then another one.
I felt something moving on my tongue. Got scared and shocked!!
Spit out whatever was in your mouth. And a small cockroach was moving on the floor alive.
And can't believe what happened??🙀😱 The shopkeeper also can't believe what happened. How came an alive cockroach went into a coffee mug??
I cleaned my mouth two times with water. Took lemon water.
Still feel disgusted. Also, did brush my teeth, but was not able to feel good for some time.
A couple of days later when I went to another coffee. Ordered Mango Mastani. It looked delicious. And had a couple of mixed fruits like mango slices, cherry, rose petals, etc.
When I started drinking it. Small cherries come to my mouth and the first thought that came to mind was the cockroach incident. And hopefully, it was not a cockroach. But the thought of it keeps coming to my mind. After some time Vishal started laughing 😃 and asked what happen again??
And we both started laughing...
After a couple of weeks, I was having my everyday morning coffee and checking my email. And forget to take it. Within some time sahi (called in marathi lang.) occurred on it. Sahi means dark thick layer on coffee or tea it forms after some time if we don't move the cup. I was busy the reading article when took a sip of it and sahi comes into my mouth and suddenly I spit it out on my mac.
Double shocked 😲 about my unconscious behavior?
That's how trauma works in our life. We have to make conscious efforts to handle it.
I remember another incident of trauma that happened to me while I was in high school. I got a glass of water with some dirt in it and I took a couple of sips from it. After some time, I got to know that it contains some dirt in it.
From that time, I used to take my own drinking water and most of the time not use provided by others. It got me in the habit to take my own water before a lunch or dinner.
This kept going for 4-5 years until I was ready to use served water glasses. And I was not able to explain it to my relatives or friends.
Until you make unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate. -- Carl Jung
What is trauma??
Psychological trauma or mental trauma is an emotional response to a terrible event or series of events, such as an accident, pain, rape, or natural disaster. Reactions such as psychological shock and psychological denial are typical. Longer-term reactions include unpredictable emotions, flashbacks, difficulties with interpersonal relationships, and sometimes physical symptoms including headaches or nausea.
People who go through extremely traumatizing experiences often have problems and difficulties afterward. After a traumatic experience, a person may re-experience the trauma mentally and physically.
Ref - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma